My Current Lifesong

Over the last few weeks the church has been informed that a couple of the lead pastors of The Vineyard Church Urbana will be leaving to plant a church in Peoria, Illinois.  From the very beginning Andrew and I have been committed to going and we are excited and waiting in anticipation for what God has marked out for us in Peoria.  We faithfully are waiting for the job that God has lined up for Andrew.  Through this process I have had to continually check my heart and daily have to give my life back to God.  So many times I want to take control of my own life and spend it how I want to.  As I was struggling with this while in Texas I was listening to my ipod while taking a walk and this song really struck me, I felt like God told me that this was the song for my life right now.  Then on Sunday while at my brother’s church they sang this song and I really relinquished my control and turned it over to God.  The last part of this song in bold is really my heart’s cry right now, God spend me however you want, have your way with my life.  Might God’s plan for your life be different then what you are doing right now?  I encourage you to really press in this week and ask God how he wants to spend your life!

HILLSONG: ARMS OPEN WIDE

Take My Life I lay it down

At the cross where I am found

All I have I give to You oh God

Take my hands and make them clean

Keep my heart in purity

That I may walk in all You have for me

Oh here I stand

Arms open wide

Oh I am Yours

And You are mine

Take my moments and my days

Let each breath that I take

Be ever only for You oh God

My whole life is Yours

I give it all

Surrendered to Your Name

And forever I will pray

Have Your way

Have Your way

Proud of Me

Today I was proud of myself.  I am VERY frightened by tornadoes.  I’ve been known to have a panic attack or two when the sirens go off and have actually spent the night in the basement of my mom’s friend’s house “just in case” we might have a tornado (I was in my 20’s at the time).  My personal rule is that if there is a tornado WATCH I get home as quickly as possible, turn on the T.V. and sit there until the watch has passed even if this means missing out on stuff and sitting in front of the T.V. for 7 hours.  Today when I left the church at 4:00 I saw the dark looming clouds and took out my Blackberry to check the weather.  Yep, sure enough there was a tornado watch.  Then and there I had to make the decision… should I go tanning or go home.  I was already in the tanning salon’s parking lot when I saw the alert so I thought, eh you only live once and went in.  To make matters worse I was at a tanning salon and if you think about it I was therefore not fully clothed so the stakes were pretty high.  Believe me I had it all planned out how I would quickly take cover if the sirens did indeed go off.  I was so proud of myself for taking a risk and going tanning…believe me I jetted home after that and stayed home the rest of the afternoon, but still I took a chance and hope I can do more of that this spring considering we will probably have a tornado watch EVERY. SINGLE.DAY.  Remind me again why we live in the midwest?

Sorry for the crappy posts lately.  I’m currently crafting a thoughtful one, but it’s not quite finished yet!

485

That’s the number of blog posts I am behind after giving them up for 21 days….I guess I know what I’ll be doing every evening for the next week.  Just kidding, I’ll be watching Lost too 🙂

April 1st Check in

I REALLY don’t want to post this one this month.  But here it goes:

Hula hoop:  It was abysmal this month.  I like to blame 2 weeks of being sick and thinking I was pregnant for my lack of hula hooping, but you and I both know that I could have hula hooped if I was really motivated to do so.  I can definitely tell in my stomach muscles that I did not hula hoop this month more than 5 days.  Oh and I am not pregnant it was just a weird illness for a couple weeks.

Floss: I might as well take this off my list completely.  I only flossed a couple times this month.

Bible:  Sad to say we got off track a bit.  Between going away for a few days to Chicago and me being gone for 5 days in Texas, let’s just say we are 10 days behind and have resolved to just reading the day we are on instead of trying to catch up.  It’s not ideal, but it will have to do for now!

Remember you can GET BACK ON IT!  Or today is the perfect day to make a new resolution if you don’t like your old ones any more.